Today I had my first relapse of gluten eating in 10 days. Pretty disappointed in myself, but also completely forgiving. It was my first family gathering since re-committing to a gluten free lifestyle, so I'd say I did pretty well. Especially considering that I was ambushed by gluten filled deliciousness most of the day.
It was surprisingly easy to say no to most of the goodies tempting me. I just had to point to my sheriff badge and they went running. There really is something to this confidence thing those shrinks keep talking about. I've experienced an awesome mental shift that is grounded in self-care. It's not that I can't eat dairy and gluten, it's that I don't eat them. I don't eat them because I feel better when I don't. Period. Approaching my commitment to healthy eating in this way is infinitely more empowering than saying "I can't"...as I never have done well with limits.
I will rebel when a limit is set. Every. Single. Time.
I will rebel when a limit is set. Every. Single. Time.
Apparently, rebels run in my family. Not sure if rebellion qualifies as a DNA trait, but we do really hate rules. I mean really hate them.
I like to think my disdain for restriction stems from a strong spirit of independence, rather than anti-social tendencies, but what ev, judge if you must. If I feel a rule is interfering with my autonomy, I will resist. Even when said rule is for my own good, I am compelled to push its limits and investigate to find loopholes.
If there is one thing being a rebel has taught me, it's that there are always exceptions to the rule. Always. Black and white simply don't exist, and while I am a fan of the book Fifty Shades of Grey, I would say a truer description of life is more like 10,000 shades of gray.
Below is my food diary, which is pretty damn amazing to this rebel without a cause, considering the circumstance.
Breakfast:
1.5 scrambled eggs
1/2 pkg oatmeal with splash of cream
1 Pear
1.5 scrambled eggs
1/2 pkg oatmeal with splash of cream
1 Pear
Lunch:
3 pickles
4 deviled eggs
Tortilla chips
Hummus
Fruit salad
3 pickles
4 deviled eggs
Tortilla chips
Hummus
Fruit salad
Dinner:
Ham
Potatoes
Fruit salad
Ham
Potatoes
Fruit salad
Dessert:
GF German Chocolate Coping Cake
One bite of irresistible gluten filled peach berry pie
GF German Chocolate Coping Cake
One bite of irresistible gluten filled peach berry pie
Snack:
1/2 of a small McD's fry
(Honestly cant believe I ate that much considering they were so salty that they literally burned my tongue, yuck!)
1/2 of a small McD's fry
(Honestly cant believe I ate that much considering they were so salty that they literally burned my tongue, yuck!)
About 10 tortilla chips so I would not eat more of irresistible pie from above.
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