Day 7...Home

Today I woke up at 5:30 and promptly decided to go back to sleep. What is unique about that is this: I hesitated. The thought crossed my mind that perhaps I might like to stay awake, it is a small victory because I love sleep. With a capital L. You see folks, I like to call my self a mid-day-kinda-person, because while do I love the peace and quiet of the morning, I am not a morning person. I am also not a night person. If the sun is up, I am up. And that is how I like it. This leads to some hibernation tendencies in the winter, but for the most part it works well.

As I looked at my choice of food over the last week, I had to laugh at my obsession with sugar. I'm becoming very much aware that I am replacing bread with sugar. I've never considered myself a sweets-kinda-person. As a kid I had trouble eating my Halloween candy, there was always a bunch of it leftover at Christmas and I would have to throw it away. My dad would buy donuts every Sunday and I secretly hated it. Too rich and sugary for my sensitive tummy. I would much rather have some fruit and eggs please.

Which brings me to my point for today. These things about me make me uncomfortable, like maybe I don't fit in with the rest of the universe, I mean who doesn't like donuts? So I stay up late in spite of the fact that I really would rather be on my couch or in my bed reading no later than 9pm each night. It has taken me years to accept that maybe it's okay I am a daylight person. And further, I don't have to eat donuts if I don't want to. There I said it, I don't like donuts. I am who I am.

And while these things may seem superficial, I believe they are a symbol for how I feel about other bigger parts of me that don't seem to fit in with the rest of you "normal" donut-eating-sleep-hating-people. But today something great happened that reminded me I am already like everyone else. The song  I'll Make This Place Your Home came on the radio, and while that in and of itself is not special, the fact that I was wishing for it to come on did kinda make it special. You see this song reminds me that I belong, that I have a home. A special place where I am loved because of, rather in spite of my many flaws.

Hold on, to me as we go

As we roll down this unfamiliar road

And although this wave is stringing us along

Just know you're not alone

Cause I'm going to make this place your home

Settle down, it'll all be clear

Don't pay no mind to the demons

They fill you with fear

The trouble it might drag you down

If you get lost, you can always be found

Just know you're not alone

Cause I'm going to make this place your home

Settle down, it'll all be clear

Don't pay no mind to the demons

They fill you with fear

The trouble it might drag you down

If you get lost, you can always be found

Just know you're not alone

Cause I'm going to make this place your home

There are times when I hear this song and think that I may not have ever heard anything more beautiful. Today was one of those days. It is a love song that we can just as easily sing to ourselves as we can to the ones we love. We just wanna know that we have a place where we can be seen and heard and loved. Warts and all. A home.

Know your not alone. I'm gonna make this place your home.

What if we made ourselves our home? What if we were comforted by our own skin? Home. In our own skin. 

Food for thought.

And speaking of food, here is what I ate today.



Breakfast:
1/2 Pkg oatmeal with splash of Creamer
Strawberries
1.5 eggs
1 Coffee - plenty of creamer!

Lunch:
Turkey Slices stacked on Avocado
1/2 of an orange
Tortilla chips
Caramel Rice cake

Snack:
2 Gummy worms

Dinner:
Chicken and Rice Stew
(Homemade - Chicken, rice, carrots, celery, onion, broth)

Dessert:
Caramel Ricecake w/Peanut butter (This was no coping cake folks, but it did the trick)