Day 9: Anxiety Returns

This morning was no different from other mornings, difficult to get out of bed - but energy kicked in once I started getting up and around. Once it kicked in, I was pretty productive. It feels so great to have such high energy levels in the morning - I am loving that! It was a very busy day, so it's a good  thing I had the enregy to handle it all.

As the afternoon set in, I statred to feel very anxios about the Unstoppable Women meeting happening tonight. As I was prepping for the meeting, my anxiety sky-rocketed and I noticed myself wanting to fall into some unhealthy patterns. I started feeling overwhelmed that my desk wasn't organized and wanted to pull out all of the drawers and organize them. Then I noticed my snail mail inbox was overflowing and I wanted to get to that right away. I have never been aware of this tendancy in myself before as a reaction to anxiety. Probably because I would normally just jump into those other tasks. But, today I was able to observe my impulses, let them pass, and remain focused on what I was doing. It feels like a huge breakthrough.

I am a generally anxious person and my way to handle stress is to react to it. Which creates a downward cycle that ends in me completely stressed and exhausted by the end of the day. I was able to notice the stress and let it pass without reacting. I was able to complete my prep for the meeting with plenty of time leftover to play with the kiddos before leaving for the night. 

Makes me regret not getting diagnosed sooner. I am such an advocate of creating your life and being in control of your feelings. Probably because it has always been so hard for me. I was able to put systems in place to help me along in the process - but I have never been able to prevent the complete meltdown as I did yesterday. Maybe it's the diet and supplements - maybe not. But, one thing I know for sure is that I feel a physical, mental, and spiritual clarity that I have not felt before. Time for bed my friends - goodnight.

Meals:

Breakfast- Puffed rice w/ strawberries, green tea, coconut milk.

Snack- Green smoothie.


Lunch- GF toast, refried black beans, rice cheese, avocado.


Snack- Green smoothie.

Dinner- Turkey burger on GF bread.

Snack- Apple.
Water Intake- 40oz. 

Supplements: L-lyosine, fish oil, D3, Probiotic, antifungal, multivitamin, kelp caps, cal-mag citrate, thyrisol.

Energy levels:

Morning-High

Afternoon-High

Evening-Moderate

Exercise: None

Mood: Anxious.

Changes: Was able to allow anxiety to flow through and out of me.