Day 4: Good Even When it's Bad

I was awoken by a certain little almost five year old at 3:30 this morning, my headache started at about 4:00am, and I could not fall back to sleep until 5:30. Then alarm clock went off at 6:30 - unsurprisingly I did not move again until 7:30. The headache stayed with me as dull background noise throughout the day. And despite my bad start to the day my spirits are pretty good and have stayed so all day. It helped that after dropping Charlie off at school I decided to do something fun with Spence. We went birthday shopping for Charlie - five year olds are so much fun to shop for! We got all kinds of pink and pretty things that I can't wait to watch her unwrap. This helped me stay positive and excited for the future.

I have this "on the verge of a headache thing" going on which is completely annoying, but better than a full fledged headache so I am just dealing with it. Also, if I eat it goes away. As I entered into evening I noticed I was not overly exhausted which is pretty amazing considering that I had such little and broken sleep.

I was thinking about an upcoming trip today wondering how in the world I will stay on plan while away, when I caught myself thinking "If I screw up I will have to start all over again" As if eating something with gluten or dairy at that point would completely erase all of my hard work thus far. Then I realized that is how I have handled every diet I have ever been on. If I screw up once then that's it - I'm done. How crazy is that?

So for dinner I lived on the edge and ate green beans, which are on my black list. It felt good to eat them and not fall apart afterward. I am feeling surprisingly ok with all of this deprivation, but it has only been four days and we shall see how I do on the weekend. Weekends are traditionally my weak point, in fact I have always wondered why they have never called them "weakends" because that is when most people lose all will power. I have to say there is something stronger in me than will pushing me forward. It is belief and faith in what I am doing. There is no superficiality motivating me to do this - it is purely the desire to be healthy. Now I'm not saying if I lost a few pounds as a side affect I would be upset, but my intention does not start there. On that note I am signing off - I pray for sleeping children and a headache free household tomorrow....

Meals:

Breakfast - Puffed Rice Cereal, Strawberries, Coconut milk.

Snack - Green smoothie (Kale, parsley, yogurt, coconut creamer, papaya, banana, mango, pea protein), five rice crackers.

Lunch -  Leftovers (GF Linguine, artichokes, and grilled chicken in pesto sauce)

Snack - 6oz green smoothie

Dinner - Grilled Cheese sammies (GF bread and soy cheese) and green beans

Snack - Rice crackers and cashew butter

Water Intake - 60 oz 

Supplements: L-lyosine, fish oil, D3, Probiotic, antifungal, multivitamin, kelp caps, cal-mag citrate.

Energy levels:

Morning -  Pretty tired from lack of sleep and headache was setting in.

Afternoon - low to moderate

Evening - Low, but doing well considering the lack of sleep.

Exercise: 15 minute walk with the kids.

Mood: Calm and steady - I have not overreacted to the kids at all today.


Other Changes: Not urinating as often, complexion evening out.